holy shit i havent updated this in forever. uhhhhhh nothing really new. thats about it i just wanted to update it. later.

Apple picking is going to be the best especially the hay ride.

Currently Playing Suicide Notes & Butterfly Kisses By Atreyu see related

- Aint Love Grand

yesterday was the wake. it was just i dunno. i walked up to the casket. it was really weird. Lindsay was like "he has no neck". uhhhhhhh thats because it broke you doosh and im sure no one wants to see that. i dunno. Bryce was having a bad time. then i was because me and Deirdre were fighting and guess what the topic was. you guessed it Nichole. i dont like Nichole. im just going to go in every opposite direction she goes. ugh. Brittany lied to me about it and said that she didnt know why Deirdre was mad. thanks for being a great friend. well me and Deirdre talked it out. i dunno i still feel stupid. o well. whatever. and i still think Brittanys cousin is an asshole and i dont care if everyone likes him. because if they dont like him they like Bryce. I DONT CARE WHO LIKES ME. because i only need one person to like me and thats Deirdre. thats all i need. and thats the only person i love. well thats about it. im just gonna go. later.

"You would rather bleed, then be without her. Gone are the tender whispers dancing in your ear. Replaced with lackluster memories you cry. Your screams play in your empty room."

Currently Playing Wilting By Thousand Falling Skies see related

- Almost Heaven (Intro)

..................Eriks dead. i have no idea how im going to react. hes the 1st person in my life whos died. i know that everytime i go to town im going to expect to see him. i just have so many mixed feeling about it. im sad and im crying while i type this but im just so angry at it because its stupid. all this stupid useless drama and whos fault it is and its all just so stupid. ITS NO ONES FAULT! people just need to have more respect. i swear to god if Bryce goes to the wake and Seans there and they get into a fight im going to explode. same thing with Angela. im not going to let anyone fight. even if it means that i get hurt. its the least everyone can do for Erik. o well. thats about it. the wake is on Thursday and the funeral is on Friday. my first funeral. well im out. later.

"Where i could watch the sun set with tears in my eyes."

thats not the cd this is from.

hey. i just got home from chillin wiht my bro. it was fun but now im sorta depressed.. yea. im talking to Deirdre though so i should be better. im gonna go now so later.

"In my dreams, i swim in my tears." 4 In Tha Chamber - Cribdeath